A few years ago, I decided that the next big project in my life would be to step outside the walls of my bedroom and express my dominant sexual energies in the online space by teasing and controling subs who are worthy my attention. As a dominant woman living in a D/s relationship for over ten years, this world was home to me, but at that time I did not yet know the answer to how sharing my sexual fantasies with strange men would affect my everyday life and my relationship. I knew from the very beginning that online games for me did not mean fooling around in front of a webcam, but instead I tried to establish long-distance relationships where I could be present in my subs’ everyday lives in the form of various games, tasks, teasing and interactions. In this way, giving each other the continuous, mutual sexual vibration that makes most beginning long-distance relationships exciting. The thrilling experience of the dating phase, in which two people get to know each other little by little, gradually the walls come down, both begin to bond in more and more ways, the trust deepens, the sexual vibration becomes stronger, yearning for fulfillment becomes more and more frustrating. Of course, all this within a FemDom theme.
In this book, I tell the early stages of my four most defining D/s relationships through a variety of sex stories. This book is about their teasing, control, humiliation, pushing their boundaries, and secretly involving their girlfriends/wives in our games. Over the course of our online long-distance relationship, which lasted for several months, my subs’ everyday lives became increasingly intertwined with their relationship with me, and through various sophisticated, perverse, yet elegant games, I demanded a greater and greater share of both their sexual fantasies and their civil lives. The most important thing for me in D/s games is creating context, which is why the stories described in the book are less about pure sexuality and more about dominating the psyche and creating my cult of personality. In the nearly 600-page book, I present what an online BDSM relationship mean to me, through over four months, 98 chapters, and 69 specific game ideas.
The story progresses along four (+1) parallel storylines:
- Ádám, a forty-something family man working in a high position, whose main desire is to secretly surrender his wife (too) to an unscrupulous, born to rule dominant woman. He could not live out his strong submissive tendencies within his marriage, and his unsatisfied desires that had been suppressed for decades pushed his fantasy into a very sensitive fringe area of BDSM: subconsciously he wants to punish his wife for never being open to a D/s relationship within their marriage. And he chose an unconventional way to punish her: me. Our perverted fantasies soon found each other, but at that time neither of us knew where this dangerous game would lead.
- Benjámin, the humorous, playful, twenty-something laid-back guy who is dominant in his relationship but secretly has strong masochistic tendencies. At first, he was only looking for a dominant woman for chastity orgasm control games, but later he discovered his submissive tendencies and soon found himself in a D/s triangle in which he dominated his younger, college girlfriend, while I controlled both of them. Beyond everyday sexual stimulation, human relation was very important to him, and he increasingly wanted to get to know me as deeply as possible and, if the chance is given, to serve me in person.
- Jonatán, an intellectual in his early thirties with a fetish for WOMAN and intelligence, is a determined, well-mannered man in his civilian life, but his relationship and sex life is boring. He was just planning a breakup when he came across my profile, and despite his inexperience, he was brave enough to jump headlong into BDSM with me. The piquancy of our relationship was primarily due to the fact that between two sperm-feeding games we often exchanged ideas about elite culture, and he was at least as impressed by my elegance, sophistication and intelligence as by my desire to dominate, my uninhibited fantasy and my hedonism.
- István, a good-natured, single thirty-something who would do anything to win me over. Successful in his job, accustomed to always getting what he wanted and always being the best at what he did. He decided from the very first moment that he would be my most prominent sub in my harem of slaves, and if necessary, he is willing to cross his own boundaries to do so. In his very first letter, he asked me to do anything with him, to challenge him to any challenge, and he would prove that he would do more than anyone else to satisfy me. He set the bar very high for himself, and for a while he managed to jump it, but he was not prepared for the unscrupulous way I would exploit his devotion.
- My personal sub, who has been my partner for 15 years, is constantly present in the background throughout the book, and through the conversations I have with him, I analyze the spicy, risky, painful or even annoying situations that arose during the games, that I experienced with the others. Through our conversations, even an outsider can get to know and understand my motivations more deeply, get an idea of how I think about the femdom role, what moral dilemmas arose in me during the games, and how my intense parallel relationship with this four men affected my marriage.
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